Maybe I've made a mistake...

Right now I'm reading a book that I placed in an old box months ago...

- Donnerstag, 24 Februar
Ich weiss nicht, wie ich anfangen soll
Vielleicht mit der Reise, oder? Ich finde, dass sie schön war...
Sehr Lustig! Ich Liebe Freiburg...

- Freitag, 4 Maerz

Ich habe einen anderen Kapitel geschrieben... 

Ich bin so happy shalalala. Ich habe eine Arbeit gefunden *__*

- Dienstag, 8 Maerz

Ich war in eine Chinese buffè... Hab' alles gegessen.

Awesomeeeeee Das ist sehr gut, nicht wahr? Liebe Liebe Stadt!!! 

If I continue to browse I'll find faces in shining light... 

Increasingly! Ah... Look at this!  On April I was in an Apple store trying to repair my old Mac, with a bandaged hand and trying to not consume all the money but I was not sad... Not at all! So what the fuck is wrong here?

- Sonntag, 10 April

Heute gehe ich ins Kino und ich habe "Ich bin Nummer Vier" gesehen. Das Preis ist nicht so teuer. I wanna stay here forevaH and evaH *__*

- Mittwoch, 13 April

Geld, Geld, Geld *__* lalalala

Oh I made a list :S

- Lemony Snickets
- Incidente bici
- Scheda smagnetizzata
- Pentola sulla schiena
- Vecchio Mac rotto
- Iphone nel cesso
- In lavatrice ci sono colori monocromatici
- Ho perso lo scontrino del pacco
- ti h(O.PI)ersa forevah?
- what next?

And then...
BOOM!

April, 27... One of the most important person to me... died... 

I wasn't be able to see her again... Nevermore...

"What's about now?" I repeated in my mind...

She told me: "Do not travel! Stay here with us... Messina, Messina..."

Probably I felt so guilt that I decided to get back here..

I thought: "Yes... I wanna try to stay with all of you. Family, Friends and you.. (we are going to fix everything! I am sure of that)

But... I was a foolish! 

Yeah... I had the illusion of the perfect world such as "Happily Ever After" but...

What about now? What about us?

I have a beautiful unending stomachache and so many money that I cannot even count!

Ah... And I "know" that you will never love me,  maybe 50%... only in part, maybe!!!
I still don't understand what binds me to you!!!
You've changed....  

I was happy in Messina... but now? There is no more illusions...
Stop...

la felicitá umana é basata sull'illusione...  but what happens when the illusion fades away?

la felicitá umana é basata sull'illusione...  but what happens when the illusion fades away?

la felicitá umana é basata sull'illusione...  but what happens when the illusion fades away?

la felicitá umana é basata sull'illusione...  but what happens when the illusion fades away?

la felicitá umana é basata sull'illusione...  but what happens when the illusion fades away?

la felicitá umana é basata sull'illusione...  but what happens when the illusion fades away?

la felicitá umana é basata sull'illusione...  but what happens when the illusion fades away?

la felicitá umana é basata sull'illusione...  but what happens when the illusion fades away?

What HAPPENS?

- unending stomachache 

- unending sadness 

- unending no desire to study!

- unending no money...
- and fuck other 200 things...

If I had the money... I'd book a trip!

TODAY! Because I was happy... I remember!!! I want to feel that happiness again... 

even if it means that...  

UNFORTUNATELY...

I will lose a lot of important things...

And I am not sure to come back... this time...