15.10.12

LOV(E)NOUGH!

Well... I've finally understood the reason why I'm always ill...

It's not the food I eat!
It's not the food I do not eat!
It's not the medicament I make!
It's not the medicament I do not make!



The reason why I'm always ill is... the hope...


Hope that things will return as a time ...
Hope that you can stand next to me again ...
Hope that I can give you a kiss without being rejected...
Hope that you can love me...

That's the problem! "the hope"

Knowing well that day after  day you move on... further and further away!!!
And the reason I feel bad is that I can not let you go... not completely
The worst thing that can happen and I'm stuck in this void...
in this Emptiness
because still...
I...

Fuck!
ENOUGH!!!
Go away from my heart, please! If it is not love go AWAY!!!
I can not go on like this...
Need to do something...